Friday, May 23, 2008


Ok, I know who I appear to be. But that's not who I am. I don't want to attract the kind of person I look like I am. I'm throwing away all my band shirts.
People think I'm all into music and stuff. I'm not. I could care less.
I act like I'm into it sometimes.... I guess I should stop. I want to start throwing stuff away. Clothes and music. I'm getting too old for this crap.

I want to attract someone who is smart and takes care of himself and doesn't spend his time downloading "cool new music". I don't want to attract people who have earphones in their head all the time blocking out the rest of the world.

Why do I attract people like that? Is it because I wear vans!?

This is dumb. I'm an idiot.

I'm so tired and irritable right now. I'm going to start being mean to some people.
Oh, AND.... when you call someone twice, leave a message, then call them twice the next day, write on their facebook wall twice and GET NO RESPONSE, wouldn't you think, "hey, maybe this person doesn't want to talk to me..."? Yeah, you should.

I'm not hating on one particular person, don't worry. There's a few of you.

freakin a.

Friday, May 16, 2008

Tuesday, May 13, 2008


That's what my mind looks like right now.
I get so exhausted listening to philosophical conversations.
By the end of class I have no room or energy for thoughts of my own.
I'm trying to study for a test tomorrow but it's doing me no good.
I need sleep or food.
I won't have either of those things for quite some time.
I'm screwed.

Tuesday, May 6, 2008


a public musical performance in which a number of singers or instrumentalists, or both, participate.

I went to Nofx this weekend. I had fun. Except I'll probably never go to a concert again.
Maybe Rancid, probably not.
I got the crap beat out of me. I used up way too much energy (I'm getting old and I need to be better at conserving it). It's a perfect example of "thrill seeking" from Pres. Clark's devotional. And they insulted my God and my beliefs.

I need to put my time, money, and energy into something productive.

President Clark's devotional at the beginning of this semester broadened my understanding of the baptismal covenant. I know my body is not my own and I need to take care of it, i.e. don't get tattoos, eat and be healthy, etc.
but I'd never considered "shoot(ing) guns at canisters of propane" or "jump(ing) off bridges into shallow rivers" to be breaking those covenants.

"You are under covenant to take care of your bodies and use them according to the Lord’s will and purpose.... You do not have to break your covenants in order to have a good time."

Putting myself in situations where I know the spirit cannot dwell and placing myself in danger is contrary to covenants I have made. Engaging in those activities will only deter me from my goals and my real purpose.

I have things to do and I can't let these minuscule distractions derail my progress.

And I'm going to Jackson Hole this weekend. I'm going hiking. It's going to be awesome.